How Life Being Away From Home

Before I came here, I prepared physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. It is not easy as I must be aware of many things to consider in that area. Being humble and considerate could help make the transition smooth.

I am shocked, to be honest, because, after all those thoughts, the minimal uncertainty makes me shiver like I am inside the big cold tub that I'm wrapping myself in so that |I won't feel anything hard. 

It is my first time travelling out of the country. And the preparation I underwent to get the job done was not easy. It's like a roller coaster turning and rolling up and down. Sometimes I lose hope despite all my prayers to uplift my spirit. I never stop praying and asking God to grant my request/s. 

God never left me nor forsaken me; he listens to my heart and the desire for how needy I am of that. There are no words to say, even thank you is not enough for all the blessings he poured me. I could never imagine how lucky I am. God put me in the right place that not everyone could have, but everybody dreams of coming to work, study, or visit. When God bless you, he'll bless you more than you asked for, making your eyes roll wide shut. His surprise is unbelievable and very amazing. Well, until now, I am still amazed. I am still wondering how this happened and how these became possible.

Even though I am blessed, God reminds me that he's still there for me by giving me an ongoing trial, but he made sure that I never forget to call him.

Celebrating Holidays With Friends

Ever since, I used to celebrate holidays mostly alone. If friends or co-workers were inviting me, I might go. When I am alone, I celebrate- music played with high volume, little preparation enough for myself. I am contented being alone, but there are times when I remember back to how we celebrate holidays. It hits me that I felt the difference being away with family during special occasions. A celebration, like a holiday, is a family day- the ambience and the atmosphere that surround you makes you happy from every angle, maybe because you know all the people – friends, relatives, and even neighbours can invite you for a short dinner or snacks.

Being alone on the holidays can only have a temporary feeling of emptiness. After midnight, it is back to normal.

When I am alone during holidays, I watch movies or listen to music, anything that keeps me busy. It is my way to avoid loneliness and feeling empty.

At this time, being away from the family can’t feel anymore because of the technology that helps the family to connect—just a click of your device, and you can see them and talk, unlike before it took a while before you could reach them.

At Christmas time I celebrate alone at home. Because of the pandemic, neighbours were celebrating inside their houses. I played my favourite Christmas songs and other disco music, dance, and dance. I had fruit salad and sliced bread. It was enough for me. I watched movies or shows on YouTube to avoid boredom while waiting the midnight. And I celebrate my Christmas happy

A friend and former co-worker invited me to celebrate New Year with them. The celebration was good. I had fun. And a lot of food, salad, cake, and anything. I ate a lot and got bloated, hehe.

The Power of Prayers

 The Power of Prayers

I am not a prayerful person but it doesn’t mean I am bad. I pray when I am in need…when I am asking for something. I am not a churchgoer as well- where attending mass every Sunday until it becomes a habit.

I have to be honest every time I went to church I can’t hold back my feelings I cry. I have no idea what does it mean but honestly, my tears just drip into my face. Yes, I am a sinner I admit it. I admit that I committed a lot of sins God knows about it.

I remember when I was in a situation where I could nowhere to go to church is my go to place. There was one time I couldn’t breathe because of problems there was this convent that I went to. I sat there for a couple of minutes to have a breather when out of nowhere a nun approached me, tapped my shoulder, and gave me a little leaflet. I forgot what was in the leaflet because that was a long time ago, I just remembered the leaflet. But, for me, it means a lot and I was thinking there was a sign on it.

Yes, I am not a prayerful person but in my head, I am talking to God. I don’t know if that would consider a prayer but whatever that is I never forget God. God is my breather.

Prayers contributed a lot to our souls. Constant prayers make you closer to God and blessed you in so many ways. What I meant was you will be surprised by the blessings that you don’t know where they came from.

Praying a Rosary. I went to catholic school both my 2 years in high school and 4 years in college. I lived in a place near the church. I was influenced by a friend I met accidentally, who happens to be my sorority sister. We were board mates back then. She has a prayerful family that at some point influenced her too.

Every time she had an appointment she always invited me to either a prayer meeting, a small get-together, or even a sleepover in her real house outside the city. She led by example in my spirituality. And to be honest it impacted me a lot that I am able to depend on God every time I am in trouble, in every situation I am in that it is so heavy.

Coronavirus made me insane. Made me paranoid. I don’t wanna die and I am scared to die. I am really scared because I am not really yet to die. I am still enjoying life despite difficulties along the way but I am savoring the creation of God. Until now I am still amazed at his creation—a breath-taking creations.

I became paranoid when I have to go outside although I am following protocols still this contagious is scary. I don’t wanna go out but I have to otherwise I maybe die of starvation.

Since the pandemic started along with my dreams to make it happen I become a prayerful person. There is no night that I am not able to have my rosary. My rosary helps me give more time to soul search and talking to God at the same time. I have more time to know about myself and God.

In my prayers I am not praying for myself but the entire world—my family, friends, siblings, relationships, and many other things. I am praying for peace, love, and happiness.

The Journey Of Losing Weight

Never in my wildest dreams could I be this determined. I always wanted to lose weight, but I could not make it to make it happen. I am aware that I gain weight every time I eat. Every time I eat food that is not healthy, I know something is not good to happen--the stored fats accumulate double. Our body depends on what we eat. The fitter we intake, the better our body can function beautifully. All vital organs can work according to their jurisdiction. How funny it seems that our important organ is like police personnel, their authority to watch for. 

It all started when enhancing community quarantine had been imposed to contain the spread of the deadly virus called coronavirus. Companies applied the work-from-home except for those who work in the food industry or the front line, like doctors, nurses,s and military personnel.

Everybody is staying at home for quite a while makes you gain weight because you have nothing to do but eat-sleep-eat. No activity can burn stored fats.

After two weeks of nothing to do, I admit I gain much weight. I was shocked when I looked at myself in the mirror. Oh, My God! That's the only word that came out of my mouth.

The following day, I grabbed my shoes and laptop, played upbeat music, and danced in front of the mirror. At first, it was hard to drip your sweat right away. I didn't force myself; I wasn't in a rush. I listen to my body. I don't want muscle pain; otherwise, I will force myself to stop the workout for a few days or wait until I am okay.

I started to lessen my carbohydrates from three cups to two cups and began to eat more fruits. Fruits that are rich in protein and fiber are good for the body.

When my body was ready for no more rice, it was easy. The transition was good; I didn't feel dizzy and hungry. I feel hungry but not hungry like you are dying to eat; it's more on craving but manageable. I drink lots of water because water can fill the hunger.

Unfortunately, I didn't weigh my weight, so I have no idea how heavy I was, but I know that it needs a lot of work based on my body shape.

As we age, our metabolism works slowly. It is why fats are stored fast and cause blood circulation not to function normally.

Let's bare in mind Health Is Wealth.

 

              

Secluded Place In The Heart Of The City

 

A posed that had no plan it just happens spontaneously. 

Oh, what a poor girl 

looks like broken-hearted hehe

The posed poised with the right hand on the waist, and while the

was like hand combing.

And the tricycle water service was in action.

It was a place secluded in the heart of the city. I like the place

because it feels like so province-- the air is cold,

quite and no away from polluted highways where

trucks and buses pass by.

The Struggle Of Love

The Struggle Of Love...

I thought love is happiness

I thought love is a partnership 

I thought…I thought… I thought 

So many I thoughts 

That I can't figure out 

I am in pain 

The pain that no one can heal 

Only the one caused it. 

There is no remedy 

Only I have to wait the time will tell 

I don’t know when

 I don’t know-how 

I don’t know I don’t know 

Maybe time will heal 

This pain makes me cry...

Make me shit 

Make me idiot 

Make me crazy 

When there is no closure 

So many questions asked 

So many whys and 

So many how’s

My Take On Coronavirus

My take on what shakes the world about the Pandemic. The virus is very dangerous and fatal to take human lives without any symptoms. I am scared and I am very strict about wearing a face mask, face shield, and social distancing. It is very comfortable and so hassles because it added baggage in your bad plus you look like an idiot since it is the only protection I only got that I am able to share and protect the community and loved ones without any hesitation I am following.

During its peak, going outside near my place I almost can't do it. I was paranoid and it is in my brain the hallucination what if the person that I am talking to has a virus? what if a person sit next to me has a virus? what if a person I asked for has a virus and jumped into me because I am not wearing any protection or because of my carelessness being an irresponsible human being?

Coronavirus took hundreds and thousands of lives. Death it seems a race that got the highest scores declared winner. Families mourning loved ones without seeing and paying their last respect because there are no other ways. I can't imagine their pains that shook their entire lives. I can't imagine the how's and why's they have had. How can they moved on and how to do it.

The world condemned China and hates China. Manufacturing companies withdrawing and taking back their business and invest in nearby countries where the specific countries have no bond or any mutual agreement between china.

The virus starts from them, and who the fool won't believe it is not intentional and came from the flea market or out from bats? Likewise, China also racing the death tools to Italy, the USA, Brazil, and so on. Only the pandemic can reunite the disagreeing leaders. They've been able to set aside their pride, the disliking of each other, and their principles.

No one is exempted neither country should be even the first world countries like the USA, Canada, the UK, NZ deemed to fighting coronavirus how they going to fast track to stop not only the containment.

Everybody is affected by business closure, employee layoffs, rentals, starvations and so on it which is very hard to digest in my big stomach.

 

Prayers have been pouring all over the world... groups and individual prayers had been spared out to all brave front liners ( doctors, nurses, military officers, and many others who belong to basic e necessity) and even to families suffered from losing their loves ones. 

In any form of help had been compassionately shared to most affected countries and families, even the farthest community had been reached out.

Our lives should never be normal, we continue to be scared and paranoid while the coronavirus is still around. No one knows when this gonna stop even the expert didn't know. So, we still fighting the battle, a kind of battle that we don't see our enemies, we don't see where the bullet comes from.

Like I've said coronavirus is deadly. No one should not be taken for granted, all of us are vulnerable...one wrong move and well done-- the game is over!

The precaution that we do is to follow what the doctors say. I think it is not hard to follow orders even if you are the highest person in the world. Again, wearing a mask, wearing a face shield, and apply social distancing is not hard to do. Because applying those is the only way to contain the virus. 

Again, let's work together hand in hand. Our individual cooperation can lighten the burden of our front liners and the community where we are in. 

We continue praying for each and everyone's safety.

Good luck!

God Bless Us All.

Determination

In life, there were high and lows. It's been written already in the bible People have to work hard in order to live. And, Yes, this is very true. But, we have to also to remember that God loves us. His undying and love for us is beyond compare.
It seems when we want something very important we work hard for it, no matter what happens or no matter what it takes. The road to being determinant lies in our desire because the desire motivates us to take the pain. That certain pain is painless. it doesn't matter anymore.

How To Become DETERMINANT?

Your determination depends on your desire and dreams. Determination is like food. The hungry you are the focus you want to get it. If you aim high, the bigger your desire and that you are determined. A person becomes successful because of their hunger, and determination. These two things have been a factor on the road to becoming successful. Success is not always about wealth, money, and assets. Success came from different dimensions in our lives. People were successful because they achieved academically- doctorate, or something, others will call it successful because they find a solution to their problem and many more strategies.

It's been a while I never get a chance to share my thoughts and ideas. There were a lot of things happening in my life the past few years- bad and good, happiness and sadness, tears and joy, and many things. I thank God I am still alive despite all those events beyond my control.
 One of the events and I never forget was the passing of my beloved father. I am guilty of things that I was taken for granted off.  And now more than ever I am I have a chance to show my affection to my family and loved ones.
The past years' experience taught me a lot. And from this lesson, I've realized to be obedient at times especially to our parents. I admit I was once hard-headed because I stand by what I believed in. There are things that you want to conquer while in life crises. I had so many insecurities, no self-esteem, no self-confidence, and always in doubt when making a decision. The negative thoughts come in to bother you until you become weak. I spent glasses of tears crying because the load I was carrying was really difficult.
When one time I went to church crying hard and didn't notice there was a nun coming to me giving leaflets. The church is my outlet when I am in a difficult situation. When I have problems, the church is my go-to place.
I think forgiveness is one factor to make a person moved on, to make a person happy. It doesn't matter how long and when to forgive. It is the hardest part but it is only the one way to have peace of mind. There is no amount of wealth and money the moment you forgive - the sigh of relief is so momentous.
God gives us time to repent, to think, and to search. The sin we committed is forgivable in the eyes of our Almighty, only when asking forgiveness there is repentance. The repentance will make you a brand new person. The moment you changed by repentance, the blessings become easy to come unexpectedly.

The Dried Fish

How beautiful is this fish? This dried fish, common food for ordinary people. This is yummy and delicious. This is one of the food that easy to cook and make you eat more rice. This appetizer food is great when it is drowning back and forth in spicy vinegar. When you fried it is crunchy. And take not this is an expensive kind of food.

"Once you try it you can find it"

Just Today

I am at a friend's house. It is unexpected to spend overnight with her. It is also my first time to see her place, Well, as I expected the place is cool and airy. It is overlooking view where you can feel relax. although I arrived there at night time I still feel good. We had coffee together, hers was black and so am I because they are was no coffee mater not because she doesn't like it but because she's not used to it. We talked about a lot of things, thoughts, and different opinions.
After a while, we went to bed as it was already 12:00 midnight already and there is work the next day. I did not get sleep right away thoughts are playing on my mind. I just let that thought playing until I close my eyes.
At 7:30 in the morning where all going up. I cooked our breakfast. We had meatloaf rolled with egg, coffee, rice, and fried dried fish. That breakfast made us full. While chewing and sipping there was sharing of personal life, personal experiences..some were serious and some were funny. The funny side was were all both laugh loudly as if we don't have neighbors. The neighbors are just a few steps away. They can hear our loud voices.
An hour had passed, when all things are set and ready. we all go to work and start our day well.

"Unpredictable"

Every one of us has a bad side whether we like it or not. More often than not people are mean, rude and it hard to understand. Why do unpredictable people or moody individuals are hard to deal with? Is it because they couldn't express their feelings or can't speak their mind? Or is it because they are just the way they are? Well, In my opinion, they are the person that has also difficulty in dealing with themselves. How can we help them? Are they need help? I don't think so. They know that they are unpredictable. I'm pretty sure they are being told. Someone advise them. They don't need help. They can actually change if they like to. What they do is that they are following what they feel, how they feel. They don't think about other people's feelings.
I know a few, and for me, that is very hard to deal with because you don't when you enter, when you gonna blow you jokes. You are hesitant to say something. what you did is to keep your mouth SHUT. I always deal with that kind of attitude.

It's been awhile...

It's been a while that I never had a chance to visit my blog and share some stuff. I was busy with so many things that I forgot to update my blog site but nevertheless, I'm still here....able and willing to share. Through sharing, I may help and let you learned from it.

For the past months of the year 2013, so many things happened to me that I couldn't even imagine this will happening and I went through this all alone. I thought I couldn't pass because the way I see it, it was hard and difficult but I was strong and determined to overcome it. My determination leads me to become strong in whatever it takes. But, thank God I am. I am able to solve and resolve things.

People from all walks of life do not guarantee if they will not taking you the advantage of your weakness. As long as they know you are weak they make fun of you or pin you down hard.

The way I see people except those who you personally know are advantageous and inconsiderate. Why, because they don't want to be taken advantage of. 

My journey for last year was like a sweet and sour dish. For some reason, it was a tough year. I cried and I laugh. I cried when I feel pain, I laugh when I solve my problems. It was a roller coaster for me so to speak.

But all of this I tried to control my emotion. I need to be strong and tough for I am able to face those trials again with motivational power...the power of my prayers and strong connection with Almighty Father. I know only God has the power to make things possible from impossible.

Ups and down...

I thought all journeys are beautiful, meaningful, unforgettable, full of happy moments and enjoy. It proves to me that I was wrong because in my personal experiences I gave up. In fact, I asked God to take my life because I can no longer take the pain. I was desperate then. The only thing that holds me was my HOPE and PRAYER. God took away the pain and let HOPE to live. I am living now the journey of life that has a lot of hopes, although there are frustrations but manageable. I sometimes cry and it is my way of releasing pain and stress. Well, battling life is forever. The journey of life is always having its ups and downs, it all depends on how we gonna balance and fought for it. Ika nga NO GUTS NO GLORY...move on!

Spending Quality Time

Recently, I took time off from work. My friend and I travelled to Ipil via Zamboanga City by plane. We spent our time together full of memories. Our friend is celebrating her 41st birthday. The days we spent together have bonded us. We feel like we are getting to know each other again, or we rebuild the friendships without pretensions or secrets and become true to ourselves. It was such a beautiful feeling to bond again. The celebration ended with beautiful and happy memories we can reminisce about forever.

My back is killing me...

My back is always a problem for me since I grew up. When I was younger I was frolicsome. I was a leader to my playmates to play far from our house. We build a little house where we can sleep, cook, do some laundry or doing stuff like the real one, and each one of us doing our individual duty. We are so happy living that little moment.
We play hide and seek most of the time. My playmates are my cousins and neighbors. One day when we play hide and seek I was hiding in the curtain not knowing that there was a hole down below. Upon my step. I grabbed one of my playmates and we both fell all the way straight to the hole.
I never tell my parents about what happened because I know my father will get angry and he might spunk me. I didn't know that my right arm was dislocated I just knew it when I raise when I'm preparing to get ready for bed that I can't raise my arm and in pain...still I didn't tell my father.

Crying

Crying is an expression if we are frustrated or happy.
It is an emotion that is hard to control.
It is also a sign when we are frustrated or happy.
It is our way of easing pain.

We cry because we want to release our emotions 

Not because we are weak or a loser.
There are many reasons why we cry...
we cry for sympathy
we cry for our problems
we cry for no reasons
we cry for others

We cry because we want to cry...

Think everyday is an OPPORTUNITY...

Every day is really an opportunity where God gives us life to live. It is our life that matters in our daily activity. Our life is designed to fight our ups and down- trials so to speak. Because without trials we can't see the opportunity to grow and become mature.
Opportunity does not only for carrier or love life or family. Opportunity comes from how we are going to handle our life, to become successful in any aspect. I understand there is no perfect life because we are vulnerable in so many ways.
Many of us forget the opportunity of time...a time to spend with our loved ones, with our peers and the opportunity for new acquaintances and the opportunity of re-assessing our selves.

As they say "opportunity knocks only once"

Who Am I As Friend

After months of seeking new friends, I came to realized I don’t need many friends. I’ve been blessed with my few quality friends because they are true, honest, and trustworthy. I seldom to talk to them neither see them but I know when I need them they are there for me as much as I am there for them.

Friends for me are like diamonds- valuable, fragile, and expensive.

My loyalty, respect, and honesty guaranteed the importance of friendship. I am not a trouble maker or a fighter but a loving kind of friend. 

I am a friend that would never leave as long as my friends wanted me to stay and expect me to be their side when they are in trouble

I am a friend who will appreciate things.

I am a friend that can never afford to back fight because for me friend will always be protected by all means.

Misunderstanding is just a spice of a growing friendship. You can settle and talk to it when it's a perfect time.

Friendship is not measured by material things but measured by the things you do for your friends, the time spends (quality) together, and the love and respect you shared with each other.

For now, I am contented with my set of friends..bonus if there is/are one to come. I will not find new friend/s but I let friendship grow on its own.

Remembering college joke

A group of disabled friends hanging out together& singing Rey Valera hit song Kung Kailangan mo ako
Kuba: Mayrong lungkot sa iyong mga mata
Bulag:At kay bigat ng iyong dinadala          
Kuba: Kahit di mo man sabihin
Pipi: Narito ang mga palad ko handang dumamay kung kailangan mo
(nagalit si putol ng marining bkit siya sinali di naman sya ksama sa inuman sinapak nya lahat)